Do you ever think that you know who you are inside, but you just can’t be who you want to be? You just can’t make the changes. Maybe as you were going through substance abuse treatment at a Broward County drug rehab you started to see more clearly the shape of yourself but you don’t know how to implement it. You might have a hard time believing that you could ever make the person in your mind be the person you show the world. I’m here to tell you that your life is a never ending project, but that’s not actually a bad thing. And you have everything inside of you to make the person you are evident on the outside.
A Brilliant College of Intentional Choices
Think about how wonderful it is that you get to care for yourself actively, forever. You, and no one else, have the authority to do whatever you want to make yourself a beautiful sculpture, and you get to decide what “beautiful” means. You are your own canvas or clay, you pick the analogy, and you can put brush strokes or clay, or magazine cuttings anywhere you want to.
Sobriety Opens Up The Space
You may have not been functional enough to try to sculpt any part of who you were before you went through treatment. But sobriety opens up a setting, where there wasn’t one before, where you can safely construct who you want to be. You can’t do it all at once. No one can. It can be frustrating to not be able to snap your fingers and be who you want to be this minute, but as your sobriety progresses and your healing too, you’ll find that you are able to shift and change more readily because you’re used to doing it. You are working hard and the more you work at something, often, the better and more efficient you become. This is also true when it comes to self reflection and self honesty. It’s hard but you get better as you go, I promise.
Because we are a composite of everything and everyone we have encountered and experienced, it can feel overwhelming to pay attention to the way you’re directing your own development. How do you keep track of every single thing? You don’t. You can’t. But you can pick and choose which parts you want to work on individually, and as you meet goals or milestones, you can add other parts of the project. Maybe this month you’re working on feeling intentionally grateful. Maybe next month you’ll work on staying calm in traffic. Maybe the month after that you’ll feel safe quitting smoking. Take the picture of yourself in your minds eye, that inspiration from your brain, and create that person. Be your own muse. Realize your own future and do it in the way that you intentionally choose to do.